Gambler's Dream lyrics

I've spent a lot of years mixing tears with heart and soul.
I brought it to a boil and then I poured it down a hole.
I covered it with dirt, disregarding that it hurt,
to pile in the earth without a single seed to grow.
Knew no amount of effort could pull life straight from the air
Even though it's only nothing,
I just liked taking care
I was waiting for the sun to come and dance across my work.
It burned the sterile ground and my arms opposite my shirt.
With diligence unfading,
closed my eyes and hands and prayed,
to a God I don't believe in,
for a miracle displayed.
I convinced myself that nothing could be something if I tried,
and I could win an argument with pistols at my sides.
I was hoping for a moment of your oh so precious time
to relay all the bullshit that's been clouding up my mind.
Five of these are empty,
but I don't know which ones,
someone shoulda' taught you you should never play with guns.
Point it up at me and do your best to make it click,
but do it rather quickly cuz the waiting makes me sick.
Compose yourself and steady,
this shouldn't be that hard,
if it makes it any better, close your eyes and shoot the dark.
And in the end you love me,
whether or not it's true,
and anything I had has been written off to you.
So get up from the table,
leave me lifeless and behind
I bet you never thought of this as how you'd blow my mind.